looking back at some pictures from a trip not so long ago, i realized that i was too busy looking at the smile upon my own face that it never occurred to me that he really was never happy, at least thru the eyes and mediocre smile. i come to the reality that happiness is in the eye of the beholder...

...next time i better put on my glasses, i might see better. must make mental note to continually look at things in a new perspective.

did i tell you that i have officially no life now with all the readings upon readings that i have to do for the phD seminar i'm taking?! crazeee.

no one ever sees this part of the reagan national airport...but i did this last time i went home. it looks like a creampuff, or a piece of plastic, or the inside of an elaborate flower, and yet the stars are intermingled within this horizontal plane adding an eery mystery to it all.

sorry no updates lately. busy busy bumblebee, yea you know me. grad school starts today. what shall i wear...will the other kids be bigger than me? just kidding, i just have this slight fear that i've been out of the loop for the last three years, academics wise, and well...going back to school is kinda scary. um, i gotta go downstairs and unpack from the ikea run...sort out what i'm bringing to studio and what i'm leaving here. my updates to my blog are going to be kinda infrequent in the next couple of weeks, at least until my laptop finally arrives. i'll try to stay in touch as much as possible. i spent a large portion of the weekend, sorting and cataloging and alphabetizing my entire architecture magazine collection. i remember other people with similar complusions and wonder if it was something i caught, or perhaps i have always been complusive myself. i figure it was the latter, but realizing that other people do the same might have encouraged the behavior in allowing me to think it was somewhat normal.

back in d.c., suffering from a severe case of jet lag, went to bed at midnite, woke up at 3:15 and then didn't fall back asleep till 5:30 only to wake to the alarm at 6. not only that but they closed starbux by my work....who would've ever imagined, starbux closing??? it's only temporarily, renovations and improvements...anyhow, the inconvenience got me a coupon for free coffee. now how super is that? i was forced to go across the street and drink cosi. it must've been fate though, this starbucks closing and causing me to go elsewhere cuz i was doomed to run into my old co-workers, whom i've been avoiding due to the lack of responsiblity i wish to claim for their irresponsibility. anyhow, i am now strung into going to my old job next week sometime and teaching the "new girl" how to handle my project and how to do my job. this is should be fun....or it just may convince her to quit while she's ahead. i think i scared off the last potential when i had to tell her all i did...oh well not my problem. and they better pay me consulting fees now plus time and money for transportation all the way out there. enough griping about old work. i love my new work. laid back...no stress...cool music....super cool boss. i mean how much cooler a boss can you get than one who gives you tickets to go see "sneaker pimps" tonight for free, drinks included! gotta run....time to make a costco run cuz we are all out of food!