it's amazing what a little fun-in-the-sun can do for my mood. i am so happy i decided not to go out friday nite...waking up saturday and pulling weeds in our 5x12 rectangular piece of garden was the perfect way to start the weekend. the air was fresh, i saw worms and caterpillars and all sorts of other creepy-crawlies. i guess sometimes being out in the working world makes you lose touch with the realities that make this world so wonderous. note: not wonderful but WONDEROUS...careful word selection is a necessity in this life. i wish i knew more words.

i was trying to remember this weekend what i did as a child...there were no big wheels, no slip-n-slides...what did i do to entertain myself. the eight years before my brother was born, i was my own companion. i remember having cheap toys, playing in the dirt, collecting fire flies, climbing orange trees...i didn't know how to ride a bike till i was 12, nor did i learn how to swim till i was 16. i think i remember turning on the rotating butterfly sprinklerhead in the backyard and frivously running around it trying not to get wet. i remember prete nding to be the queen of england, aluminum foil crown atop my head, a dozen silk and plastic yellow roses within my arms, and fuzzy primary color red queen-sized blanket wrapped around my shoulders and neck. my grandpa would announce my entrance with song and cheers...it is a happy memory.

i could not remember having many playmates...perhaps why i so enjoyed strolling thru the wwii memorial this weekend with a couple in my pocket.

i watched "Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind". another favourite movie now to add to my list...over pizza and tea we talked about memory and the amazing capabilities the brain has to even remember name with face....and would it really be a good thing to have such an ability to erase memories...hmm...i want that movie in my collection...i still need my beloved "Frida" not to mention upgrade my vhs to dvd of favourite movies of all time. i have "Amelie" already but need: "Benny & Joon", "Great Expectations", "Gattaca", "Memento", "City of Lost Childre", "Magnolia", "The Pillow Book", "Finding Nemo", "The Nightmare Before Christmas"

hmmm...sorry about the list, i think it is more a mental note to myself, analyzing the kinds of movies i like and what that says about me.