i've gotta take my mom here---> conservatory of flowers

when i go home in august again, i must take my mother on an outing to here and a tour of the ikea experience. there's a new store in palo alto, and she's never been. we'll make a mother-daughter event of the two. i feel tortured inside because i'm not around my mother more. especially right now when she needs me most while she is taking care of her own mother. (long story short: it seems the doctors jacked up my grandmother when she went to get her glaucoma surgery done. each week my grandma complained of absolutely splitting headaches, ones that made her not sleep for days and days, the doctor said it would go away...but after 5 weeks!! he finally agreed with my mom and grandma that something might be wrong. anyhow, an eye specialist was recommended and she had to undergo emergency surgery because of the pressure in her eye that was destroying the lens! i still haven't been able to get a hold of my mom, and my brother is clueless, to see if my poor grandma will ever be able to see out of her eye or not anymore) well, back to my mom, she's been taking care of, cleaning and cooking, and chauffering my grandparents all around for the last 3 months. to the emergency room, to the doctor, to the emergency room, to the doctor. poor mom. i wish i were there to make her laugh and be the silly little girl that makes her eyes smile. i have all these stupid petty little things that i worry about and when i think about it none of that matters in comparison to how much i worry for my mom and family. sometimes i have those days when being 3000 miles away from them just sux---today is one of those days.