tick tock tick tock. is it midnite yet? is it time to go home and rest these weary eyes before another day begins again tomorrow? i am rather tired so i'll just jot down whatever first comes to my fingers:

-i want to eat cake.

-my aunt is pregnant. and she is not married. and her boyfriend is extremely non-committal.

-i love meeting new people, but it takes so much effort. the last 4 weeks has just being meeting after meeting. and i am exhausted from the effort it takes to be "nice" to everyone. it is so much better to just hurry up and get to the stage where you are comfortable being "mean"---you know what i mean?

-i need to figure out the whole switzerland program thing but it is hard seeing as i just barely am trying to get back into this first semester.

-i am happy because now that my brother is in college, it seems that he and i talk much more. perhaps it is just the link that we are both waiting impatiently for out new laptops to arrive that binds us together in common unity.

-my mom has a new cell phone, and i can now talk to her for free whenever i please. my dad no longer needs to hog the weekend minutes of my phone as he too switched to verizon. yeah!

-i must draw a 1/4" scale section of my building by monday. this means that the drawing will be approximately 5 and a half feet long. yes, that's right, the drawing will be longer than i am taller.

-it is different now that i am school again. i am doing things much differently and have a greater understanding of "the big picture." life is not about school, nor does my everything revolve around architecture itself. there is a force much greater than ourselves and the condition of our hearts is what truly matters.

-brigita is getting braces. her tolerance for persistant and constant pain will surely be put to the test.

-i want new glasses. i am tiring of my purple tri-layered glasses. but for now since there is no money, then i cannot embellish my life with any honey.

-sometimes there are days when i remember things. (pause) i don't know why, but i remembered today. and for a brief moment i dwelled on the idea of two completely distanced lives yet still separated by only a small string. it doesn't matter how far one travels or how long the time passes, the connection remains. i often wonder why this wonder continues. i shed a tear or two this morning. not from any type of sadness, but more from a kind of melancholy happiness...knowing that i am a truly blessed girl to ever had such a connection. for this i am happy to have shed the tear.

-did i say i want cake? well, i really do.

-i went all day without having any caffeine. i'm going to collapse into my fluffy comforter and pillows so easily.