i know what i want for x-mas!

here’s the run down:
I didn’t hear anything all week.
I started to get worried, thinking –
Maybe people don’t like me.
So then I got depressed.
& my face was a smile turned upside round.
I went away for the weekend.
And began to think maybe this was how things are to be.
Monday came and went.
Tuesday came and my 180 rotated smile grew longer.
Tuesday dusk approached.
One week…one whole week…sigh.
Gosh darnit what did I do wrong.
Off to the building museum to see j.snow.
To be inspired, to be lifted to another place.
To think even of the midwest, barren yet limitless in possibility.

So I see a familiar face…one from a week ago.
He wonders if you are back from your excursion.
And informs me that dialogue shall continue.
Between he and I, not you!
Overload at work and hectic schedule indeed.
But an email shall be written and he will not forget me.

So although it is news, it is not for sure.
And I’m not sure which is worse-
Uncertainty or despair.

Art 2003-: Constellations

connectivity...between people and time and distance and love and stories and hand and mind and place and being. "invisible cities" by italo calivino leads to this interesting discovery of words transformed into picture diagram and thought. now to build my own 3 dimensional city.

what is a companion to you? i am curious to discover what everyone thinks in the matter of companionship...is it that my expectations are too high? although not my intent, i wonder if i am asking too much. perhaps, as i have been told and know in my heart, i am looking for my happiness in the wrong places...or is it merely the cold weather shutting down my senses for winter hibernation?? good conversations cause inner discussions...not a bad thing...just a reality check...afterall, we cannot live in dreams forever.