words of yesterday and the day before:
al·tru·ism (n. )
1. Unselfish concern for the welfare of others; selflessness.
altruistic
2. Regardful of others; beneficent; unselfish; -- opposed to egoistic or selfish. Bain.
lewd (adj.)
1. Preoccupied with desire; lustful.
2. Obscene; indecent.
3. Obsolete. Wicked.
4. suggestive of or tending to moral looseness; "lewd whisperings of a dirty old man"; "an indecent gesture"; "obscene telephone calls"; "salacious limericks"
5. driven by lust; preoccupied with or exhibiting lustful desires

so now the real question? how does one fulfill both? is there any connection whatsoever? one being entirely selfless and the other being entirely selfish. this life we live is full of contradictions.

on an entirely different note, my shoulder is still killing me....ouchie. and there is a smile on my face, yet a slight tinge of pain in my heart.