Pizza man on his way...yummy in my tummy. Spent the day just chillin'. How often do I get to do that nowadays? Aside from last weekends Sunday bike ride to the top of the masonic temple, and thew few hours re-energizing myself at the gym, I haven't had much me time this past week. I guess unless you count all the sneezing and weary eyed coughs-not much time to just breathe.

Raindrops are falling just in time to keep me confined to my house. No basking in the sun and taking long cat-naps in the grass. Pigtails in the hair, short and cute I feel. Sickness almost shooed away, piggies in my hair, I feel like romper-room jumping and playing on the playground. From cold to warm, the sandals and skirts, time for painted nails and girliness to explode.

California weather makes me long for home, and the california-ness of it all. [sigh]

I am sick. Spring is here and I am sick. Can you imagine my utter disappointment? How sad-looks like it's just me, my pj's and the bed today. On another note, isn't this just hilarious:

up & running again.
"I had no idea of things in themselves, although all the feellings of actual life were already known to me. I had conceived nothing, but felt everything. These confused emotions which I felt one after the other, certainly did not warp the reasoning powers which I did not as yet possess; but they shaped them in me of a peculiar stamp, & gave me odd & romantic notions of human life, of which Experience & Reflection have never been able wholly to cure me...How could I become wicked, when I had nothing but examples of gentleness before my eyes, & none around me but the best people in the world?...My liveliest desire was to be loved by all who came near me...Thus I have spent my life in idle longing, without saying a word, in the presence of those whom I loved most...Our friendship so completely filled our hearts, that it was enough for us to be together to make the simplest amusements & delight...when absent from her I thought of her & missed her, when I was by her side, her caresses reached my heart - not my senses...my fear of it si greater than my fondness...It is a pity, his character was essentially good, we were made to love each other." -Rousseau, Confessions Book i

"Baby, you are so money and you don't even know it." -from one of the all time greatest movies Singles...did you know that it by Cameron Crowe?

A midsummer's night heat wave in the middle of spring is now upon us... how refreshing it is to go for a stroll down the block, to actually breathe in the surroundings instead of hurriedly, scurrying past, nose in my scarf, waiting for the hours to pass by quickly to reach my front door. But now, now, well, the daffodils are standing tall, tulips close behind and the greeness on the trees shades me little shoulders form the sun.

For two days now, the craving hunger for a philadelphia cheesteak sandwhich has been gurgling in my stomach. I feel like one of Pavlov's dogs salivating at the sound of a bell....the liberty bell, perhaps? Guess I've got a case of Philadelphia-on-my-mind.

Amidst all this "f***-this-sh*t-" attitude I have right now, a few happy moments crossed my path today:
1. I called my cousin Mark to leave him a happ-message-someone-is-thinking-of-you-on-your-21st-birthday voicemail...he called back genuinely said a heart felt thanks and told me "love ya."
2. The Pant Police made amends - or did he wage war? (I'm not really sure, come to think of it).

[Explanation to be pasted here in near future]

3. Getting back drawings from the plotter & knowing that every single line/idea that is going to start construction May 1st came from me. Is it so wrong to be proud?

4. The 10 minutes of sun I got as I walked to pick up wannabe sushi from the Giant Supermarket. You wonder how can sushi be so bad?? Answer: When even California rolls are just mediocre you know its wannabe sushi.

5. Learning (however a foul mood I was in) the ability to put lights into an Autocad rendering. Watch out! The 3d wiz kid ia about to pull up in her cherry red 1969 convertible Karmannghia.

6. Being able to come home to an empty house, live in MY mess, & not have to deal with anything or anybody.

7. Knowing that I'll be asleep before midnite today.

5A. Coming up with an idea for a 1 bedroom house , with only horizontal walls, or rather unidirectional series of walls:one continuous space:all made for me...& my 50 trillion cats...& don't forget the one corner for my rocking chair...the art deco rocker, of course.

[[title for this entry: f*** it, be happy]]

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My stomach is achy today...it is making it difficult to work. Are the ulcers finally coming to haunt me?

From two different completely differing vantage points, and observer and a participant, you choose:
a reporter in iraq or a man living in iraq

Some people are so keen...Observation: What are you, a friendship, not a relationship? So true, and so hurtful, and so eye/ heart opening.

Wise words from a person has 3 dates tonight [lol]:

"Purple. Well let's weigh the potential reasoning for my interpretation. Common sense tells us that purple is associated with depression. For one to be depressed stems from one simple seed, and that is the what one lacks within their offspring. When one is depressed, they seek comfort and attention. It is said to be the ultimate stress reliever of all; intimacy. The willingness to express, receive, release, accept and feel connected at that particular moment. Just a form of detaching oneself from realities of unhappiness. If you need further credibility on my reasoning, peep out the following site. It's been some time that I don't exactly recall where I came across such association with the color purple. But whatever. My color is black 24/7."

colour & you!

Could this explanation for violet be anymore Florence Jennifer? Scariness.

jennifer