why am i acting like a dumb, stupid girl? why are my feelings so tender and raw? why do i feel like i cannot breathe...right now everything comfortable and seemingly "normal" in my everyday is turned completely upside down. things that were "for sure and although not perfect" are no longer there for me to count on. i have dismissed them, and they have gone away...not only emotionally but physically. and the "risk and the not so sure" is not even there either. i hate it. what have i done, is all that i keep asking myself...and then the reassuring answer comes, it is as it should be: learn to be alone...why is it a lesson i refuse to remember? learn it, damnit.